Sunday, April 30, 2006

... Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day...

ALOY and I have decided that...

HARIBO and SOFT-TOYS make the world go ROUND!
Wahahaha...

I don't care.
[pouts]
I'm gonna marry Haribo when I grow up!
LOLS...

Aloy = mean.
Aloy = evil.
Aloy = erm. gay?
Wahahaha...

Yes.
Aloy, even though your birth certificate may register you as a male, it doesn't mean that you really are male male.
Hurhur.

(x

Wahahaha...
I love chocolates!
And Gelare ice cream!
LOLS.

I love Haribo more!
(:

Posted by Char at 11:25 PM

... cause you had a bad day...

OOoooohhhhhHHHHh...

Wahahaha... Woke up at 7 today luh.
Oh my gosh.
Wahahahahahaha... Was supposed to meet Aloy at Kaps at 8. Hurhur.
OK.
I'm not usually late ok! hahahaha... but today I was late by half an hour. Heh. Haha... Sorry lahrrr!
I couldn't decide what to wear!
Hehe.
>_<
bu yao sha wo!!!

hurhur.
went to KAPS at 8.30.
heh.
aloy was there with nico.
then we went to church.

matt was leading worship today.
dang good luh!
haha.
it was quite interesting. hurhur.
then we broke for classes.
dunno how come, but asher and nico came to our class.
asher ended up teaching us.
hurhur.
so funnay.
but it was quite boring. LOLS.

erm.
after classes, dani, aloy, matt and i went to serene centre for lunch.
don't ask why we went all the way to serene centre for macs. hurhur.
we are indecisive people.
hur.

after that, we went to tierneys, were dani went to get her ham.
ewww.
her raw ham.
hurhur.
cold and raw ham.
LOLS.

wahh... matt made us feel guilty luh.
he was all like...
"Ham how many calories ahh?'
hurhur.
so contradictory.
after he said that he was all like, 'just buy. eat.'
hurhur.
so crazy! LOLS.

i bought my yoghurt fruitella and my deliciour haribo!
yummm...
it's official, hurhur.
I love haribo!
haha.
when i grow up, i'm gonna marry haribo.
hurhur.
joking luh!
hurh.

trying not to think about how much sugar I'm taking.
haha.
mann. i'm gonna be diabetic already luh.
hurhur.

Mmhmm.
anyways, back to topic. hur.
Then after going to Tierneys, we went to Island Creamery.
Hur.
Didn't buy anything luh.
Oh my friggin' gosh, I can't wait for tomorrow luh!
hahaha... My allowance!!!
hurhur.

Dani says I'm crazy, cause of how much I get per week. But it's not that bad what...
hurhur.
$250 only. i shall strike this out for fear of being murdered by ppl.
Hur.

It's like how little luh!
Hurhur.

Then we left.
Hurh.
Matt sent me home.
Haha.
In the car, we all sang songs out loud luh.
Hurhur.
Whoa...
OK.
3 people in a car.
Singing out loud to radio.
Wahhh...
Thank God we sound good luh!
Hahaha...
Yeps.
Wheeness.
No school tomorrow.

Aw dang!
Science and Home EC exam on Tuesday.
ahh... waddaheck luh!
I don't care.
Haha.
I shall sit down and study my arse off tomorrow.
Haha... Today I shall still slack a little.
LOLs...
wheeness...
Okies.
I am high.
O_O
bad hurh!

haha... okie!

I shall leave now.
hurhur.

OOOOOOooooooooooooohhhhhhhHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I am HIGH on haribo!
hurhurhurhurhur!!!
I am QUEEN of the WORLD!
Wahahaha...
LOLS.
ok.
nvm.
wahahaha...
ignore my randomness.
hurhur.

Posted by Char at 3:39 AM

... So sick...

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked right out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July the 5th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about his smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing he was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing he was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Posted by Char at 1:26 AM

Saturday, April 29, 2006

... I'll lock up my heart...

Today was channel one.

Only 3 girls showed up. The rest were boys.

Joe, spoke about P.O.W.E.R:
P - Peace
O - Obedience
W - Worship
E - Evangelism
R - Reading the word of God.

Quite interesting.
Yeps.

Alson and his girlfriend dragged me into their quarrel again. I completely blew up and told them to solve their own problems and that they had no right to drag me into it.

Yeps.

today was... an uneventful day.
I just wanna curl up and sleep...

Sleep, interestingly, is the best reprieve for a shattered soul.

Posted by Char at 5:21 AM

Friday, April 28, 2006

... Sunshine...

You are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
You make me happy,
when skies are grey...



read 4 sentences. haha.
you get the picture. (:

Posted by Char at 8:19 AM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

... If you're happy and you know it clap your hands...

Wahahaha...

yayness.
Had lunch with Aloy today. It was *coughcoughcough*interesting*cough*

Haha!!!

I'm not allowed to divulge what Aloy did to his lunch. Wahaha... But it was friggin' funny! LOLS...

Haha. okok...
he is gonna slaughter me soon! haha... xD

Posted by Char at 4:31 AM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

... You were the last good thing about this part of town now...

Whee...

It has been decided that Aloy and I love our luncheroos.
Haha... Normal sane people love their better halves, and Aloy and I are no different.

'Cept our better halves are our LUNCHEROOS! Haha...
And even better is our dinneroos! LOLS... (x

Wheee...
Good lunchies tomorrow! Haha... Aloy ish treating sushi!!! Yayness!
Haha...

I love my bestii loads and loads! And good lunchies tomorrow too! (:

Posted by Char at 6:02 AM

... Skies are so blue...

He made my day.

Haha...
With his never faltering smile and his ever ready jokes! Thanks!! You're really like my best best bestest male besti! Haha... (x

Woke up this morning and the sky was soooo blue.
Yayyness.

Aloy and I started going crazy and took pictures of the sky. Everyone thought we were crazy. T___T

haha. well! Great day today!
And aloy's treating luncheroo tomorrow! Yayness!
Haha... (x

Posted by Char at 5:03 AM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

... It was for me, so lonely and so temperamental...

Today was an interesting day...
Not much to say...
Haha...

Yeah, this week's been a totally hectic week.
Seems as though yesterday was just Channel 1, and suddenly today's already Sunday night.

I seem to live for church gatherings. Probably cause my time in the OC now is very limited.

I'll miss all the churchies. The younglings and the oldlings. Haha...
Gonna spend whatever time I have left here in church. Cause that is truly where my home is.

Yeps...

:D

i <3 the name 3/7*n

Posted by Char at 6:54 AM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

... with all to say...

Hmm...
Today was quite... erm... *coughcough*interesting.
Haha...

Nothing to do today. No one was free. So in the end, went to watch a really... weird movie with Mic at Jurong East. Haha...

It's called Dark Water. It's damn weird larhx. Haha... Yet also very freaky. In a typical asian horror movie fashion. It just serves to make you scream.
Haha... It's 3 short movies packed into 1 film. LOLS.
ALL TO DO WITH WATER! Haha...

Don't watch it unless there's absolutely nothing else to watch. LOLS.

Posted by Char at 5:39 AM

Friday, April 21, 2006

... And I never know where I stand...

I'm tired. Drained and emotionally handicapped at the moment.
I wouldn't call this love exactly.

It's not love. Love is eternal. Loving someone means that you'll love him forever. And I'll never stop loving naed which is why I won't say that I love anyone anymore.

This is just a crush...

Yeah...
Elton

Posted by Char at 8:30 PM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

... and it's me against the world...

Met him again. 2nd time in 3 days.

He still makes me laugh with his silly antics. He still makes me smile with his heartwarming smile.

Makes me wonder, who he is...

He's like an angel sent to me when I needed to laugh the most, when my life was being torn asunder...
He is the light that's lighting my path right now... Thank God for people like him. The sort of people who would smile and bring smiles to the faces of others.

We are strangers in a land we call home, yet who is this stranger that brings smiles to others?

Who is this stranger?

Posted by Char at 4:20 AM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

... Shuddup, shuddup, shuddup!...

I HATE YOU!

Posted by Char at 3:36 AM

Monday, April 17, 2006

... Of someone else's life...

Hrmph!

Haha... Went to Pastamania at Cine for lunch with Shu today. Quite fun. Whee... Student prices are good! Haha...
Then we ran in the rain to Somerset MRT.

Met Pho and Gela at the traffic light.

Went to MRT station with Elaine. She met with her friends, Wilson and some other guy.

Shu asked for Wilson's number, used my name. So Elaine gave it. Then we both sms'd him.

AND THEN!!! Pho and Gela called me on the phone and called me a despo. Hello?!
What did I do?!
Whatever.

I don't care.

It's like I don't have feelings at all larhx.

I don't cry or anything when I hear hurtful stuff like that?! Who be you to call me a despo?! It's not like I asked for it you know...
It's not like you've never done it before...

And hey, it's not my fault if I think he's cute right?!
whatever.
i don't care anymore.

i'm just disapointed that i've got such great friends. that's all...

Posted by Char at 4:40 AM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

... When will you learn to be a little, helpful?...

Whee...
Today's easter sunday. haha

Woke up at 6am to go for sunrise service. Quite cool actually. Little candles, coloured stones... The make. Haha...
Then went to Brekko at Holland V for lunch with some OC members. Haha. Soooo fun! haha... :)

Then I went to Timo's church. Whoa...
His church is like... How cool?! Haha... Play, songs, even the pastor was super enthu! Haha...
Aloy and I are gonna go for communion sunday at his church! Haha... :)

It's quite fun. Sermon was powerful too. :)

Than we went to watch a movie.
Timo, Daryl and me. Daryl treated me! :)

Haha... went to watch Ice Age 2.
So lame. Not as good as the first one. Haha... Or maybe I've just grown up?

Haha... ANYWAYS!
Yayyness. Thanks Daryl for treating me! :)
Whee...

Hahahaha... Daryl was acting like a little boy today.
So cute. Haha... :)

ok. Timo is so mean!
haha... as usual. LOLS
xD

Posted by Char at 4:40 AM

Friday, April 14, 2006

... We used to listen to the radio and sing along to every song we know...

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...

Posted by Char at 5:54 AM

Thursday, April 13, 2006

... All that I did was walk over, start off by shaking your hands...

Went to Cine yesterday with Pho and Shu.

Haha... We went to watch "The Art of Seduction".
Dang funny. The guy, was SUPER cute... Haha... And and and... T___T
I just found out, that dean used all those moves on me... T__T... not exactly identical moved larhx, but that guy there so reminded me of that deanbo. except that guy in the movie was H-O-T!

Whereas Dean is well...
erm...
nevermind.

haha... (:

Posted by Char at 4:21 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

... I could've sworn that I have seen your face before...

Whee!!!

Today, went to Paragon with Shu and Steph, met up with Aloy. Got a new phone and plan! (:

haha. thanks thanks thanks for helping me apply Aloy!!! haha...

Yayy... Motorola L6. Woots. I love me new phone. Though I still like my old one more. haha. :( So sad. I lost it... :'(

(cries)

haha. ah wells... Yayy... New number. if you ppl wanna know what it is, catch me on MSN yeahh?!

haha... well... okay. that's all. (:

oh boo... tomorrow is swim heats. yuck! :(

Posted by Char at 4:50 AM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

... You'll never be a James Dean...

Stop pretending to be someone you're not!

I can cry out from frustration just by the amount of belief the teachers have in me. They tell me that I have the potential to excel, they tell me that I'm more matured than most of my peers... They tell me so many things, yet... I'm too lost and bewildered to understand anymore.

So what?! Does it matter if I "have the potential to excel"?! Does it matter if I'm "more matured than your peers", does it matter at all?!

So what if I understand people?! So what if I understand things and am smart?! I just don't know what I want to do. Can you please just understand that?!

Urgh!!!

Next Tuesday~ Squash B'div. finals! Against SCGS again...

Hope the seniors win as well! :)

Posted by Char at 4:23 AM

Monday, April 10, 2006

... If you're happy and you know it clap your hands...

[clap clap]

To see all the people around you falling to pieces and yet be so unable to do anything about their lives, anything to help them, is so disappointing and annoying.

If I had a wish, if I could make a single wish, I'd wish that we were all able to smile and laugh like we used to be able to in kindergarten again. Because those were truly the best times of our lives, where we were all just the best of friends and we were all just uber happy and satisfied in life.

The wishes we used to make, the way we were gullible enough to believe that we would be able to count the stars, the way we tried.

Those memories, so far and so distant now, still brings smiles back to my face. I realise now though that even though I miss being that age, nothing we do nor say can ever turn back time again. Life goes on no matter what, no matter how much we may reminiscize about anything at all. Even if we were to talk about our pasts, the simple fact is that we'd never go back to being carefree or anything anymore.

We've all in some way, changed and matured and developed. And we've all left each other behind. Yet... Every now and then, beautiful memories float to mind, and I'm always reminded of this one song... This one childish, stupid yet altogether endearing song...

If you're happy and you know it
Clap your hands!
(clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it
Stomp your feet!
(Stopm stomp)
If you're happy and you know it
And you really wanna show it
If you're happy and you know it
Clap your hands!
(clap clap)

Posted by Char at 3:37 AM

... Of a childlike faith...

Today's squash competition!!!

At Kallang Squash complex thingumy, MGS versus SCGS...

MGSquashies WON!!!

YESH!!! ahaha... (:

Bernice and Melody were the best players there!!! (x

Yes! Uh huh! We won! MGS beat SCGS!!!
ahaha... (x

UH HUH!

haha... (:

Hmm... nothing much to blog about today... LOLS. MG BEAT SC!

uh huh! (:

(happy)

Posted by Char at 3:30 AM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

... I'm not a girl, not yet a woman...

Sometimes it feels as though everything I've ever treasured in life is slipping away from my grasp.

I'm tired, alone, unsure, afraid and what not.

I don't want to move to shanghai, I don't want to leave behind my friends, the memories of my 'childhood home', One Comm...

There are so many things here that I don't want to leave behind, and so little that beckons me to Shanghai.

I want to stay here, in Singapore, because I'm comfortable as I am here, yet I also know that... This isn't how it's supposed to be, and that I'd just have to trust in God and know that he has something there in plan for me.

During bible study last friday, we were asked what we thought our purpose in life for, given that serving God is already taken into account. I wasn't sure. I guess... My purpose in life is to be myself, encourage the people around me, and to influence the lives of those who are in need of anything.

On friday, my form teacher too pulled me aside, and she spoke to me about many things. And she told me a verse in particular, which really stuck. "The Lord says to shower with love, especially on these people; the widows and the fatherless"...

In a way, I am very much an orphan, yet I look back and I examine my life and I realise just how blessed I really am. God has given me so much more than what my peers have, I too have gone through more than what many of my peers have, and in turn have gained my insight and wisdom.

We grow from our mistakes, we grow from our hurt and our pain.

But maybe some of us, are just born with talents we've never fully knew existed before. I've been through alot for a girl of 14. And in truth, many of the people around me wonder if I really am just 14. Sometimes, I too wonder if there is something within me that beats stronger than just 14 years.

Am I pampered? Yes.
Am I blessed? Extremely.

God has given me more than he has given anybody. And for that, I'm truly grateful. I guess it's just time that I start believing and trusting in what he has in planned for me, for He has given me so much, what have I offered to him? What have I given back in return?

... Who am I?
That the Lord of all the Earth,
Would care to know my name?
Would care to bear my pain...

Posted by Char at 4:36 AM

... This is the story of a girl named Lucky...

Well... No, this is the story of a girl named Charlotte. And that girl, would be me.

your's truly. the one, the only, the completely ego, Charlotte Then.

This blog shall track the progress of my life, day-to-day living and shallow thoughts and mindless daydreams.

In other words, just a shallow view of my everyday lifestyle.

Beauty in simplicity itself.

Posted by Char at 2:37 AM