Sunday, August 27, 2006
... take my hand, make me whole once again...
It's funny, how in just one moment, you can fall totally in love with someone. That when you least expect it, love hits you, smack in the face, and you fall. So devastatingly, so wonderfully in love with the person whom you least expect to fall in love with.
I know that I probably say this alot, but... I've seriously never felt this way before. Like my heart's about to beat out of my chest, like I'm slowly dying inside, and yet completely and totally happy.
Is this really love? Or is it just infatuation???
I don't want to fall any further, or like him any further because I know that in the end, we will only get hurt... Both of us.
I've thought myself to be in love with Dean for over a year, and suddenly, one day, I wake up and find that... There is someone else whom I care about more than Dean. There is someone else whom the thought of losing hurts even more than losing Dean. Whom I want to spend every waking hour with and don't want to go to sleep because reality is so much better than fantasy...
He's perfect.
Or at least I think so. Everything I ever dreamed of and more...
Posted by Char at 6:59 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
... then why does my hand fit yours this way...
Well, here we are again...
Standing before each other just like when we first met.
You with all your pretenses and me with all my defences, we've changed beyond comprehension, yet deep down inside, we're still the same.
We crave for answers, we're trying to find something magical to strike a chord in our hearts... We're pushing each other away and yet our souls still manage to recognize each other's???
Yet...
Circumstances have now changed... You still care about me, and I still care about you, but our roles have changed so drastically. Where once we cares for each other in a romantic way, now I see you only as my elder brother, and vice versa. You treat me like a little kid who doesn't know how to take care of herself, and I treat you as my annoying elder brother...
Things have changed so much between us... We're still friends, but we've changed.
We can't talk about anything under the sun anymore, yet when I want someone to whine to, when I need a shoulder to cry upon, you're always there for me to depend upon...
It's nice to be friends again...
Posted by Char at 3:46 AM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
... when there was me and you...
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Posted by Char at 9:36 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
... if you're not the one ...
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I dont want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
Daniel Bedingfield; Gotta get thru this .
PS: omigosh . i think the lyrics in this song is so dang poignant and so totally what i feel inside . lawls . or felt before at least ... eh . something around those lines at any rate . XD
Posted by Char at 9:14 PM
... if you're not the one ...
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I dont want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
Daniel Bedingfield; Gotta get thru this .
PS: omigosh . i think the lyrics in this song is so dang poignant and so totally what i feel inside . lawls . or felt before at least ... eh . something around those lines at any rate . XD
Posted by Char at 9:14 PM